I remember attending a weekend ladies retreat about twenty years ago, where I clearly sensed God urging me toward full-time ministry. In the quiet of that evening, my eyes fell on these words from Isaiah 61, “The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed…” (v.1). It’s a precious memory. I was all of 23-years-old and I can still picture the room in which I sitting and the strong but peace pull of the Spirit on my heart. Though I felt God’s calling on my life, but couldn’t see how that was going to fit in with my present circumstances. Returning home, my sense of calling was soon pushed aside by other responsibilities that felt more front and center for me in that season.
Over the years, “the call” would resurface and it would motivate me to volunteer for this ministry or that. But difficulties were always soon to follow—ministry can be messy business—and I would find myself doubting–doubting I had really ever heard God’s call at all.
Maybe this whole ministry thing was just my own weird idea all along. Can a person ever really know for sure anyway?
Wait. Where did that come from?
Doubt is Satan’s poison of choice. He knows he’s no match for the word of God; so he gets busy planting seeds of doubt. He said to Eve in the Garden of Eden, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” (Genesis 3:1).
He even tried the game on Jesus.
At the beginning of Jesus’ earthly ministry, He heard His Father say, “…You are my Son, whom I love; with you I am well pleased (Luke 3:22). Yet hardly a chapter later, Satan brings Jesus to a vulnerable place and says, “If you are the Son of God…” (Luke 4:9)
If? Whaddya mean, “if”?
How doubt thrives on that little two-letter word! How can we survive it? We put the words of God alongside the words of hearts. My heart can feel a hundred different things inside an hour, but God’s word is stable and never changes.
Proverbs 3:6 says, “In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
Is there a truth God has given you that you are starting to doubt? Take a moment to acknowledge Him and reaffirm His word in your life. Don’t let the devil make you doubt it.
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ – 2 Corinthians 10:5